I Am Blessed

Cait Pugliese

Working on the campus of Loaves & Fishes it’s easy to get caught up in the negative.  Every day you see hundred of homeless individuals who just can’t seem to catch a break.  They are tired, hungry, sick, victimized and for most of those I see battling addiction.  Many of the people I meet have life stories that will break your heart and are the true definition of survivors.  It is easy to feel defeated and think for a moment there is no way you can possibly make a difference.  However, amongst all the sadness, desperation and heartbreak are glimmers of hope.  All too often when I ask a guest how he or she is doing that day the answer I receive is “I am blessed.”

 “I am blessed.”  That seems like a bit of a funny thing to hear from someone who is struggling with so much.  At first I was a little taken back by the statement but after a few weeks of hearing it, I began to really think about its meaning.  The guests at Loaves & Fishes have taught me a lesson no amount of schooling could ever instill.  It is a lesson that has made me rethink my worldview and my understanding of my faith in the best way possible.  Sometimes just being there and being fortunate enough to wake up that day is enough to consider yourself blessed.  Life in itself is a blessing.

I’ve seen a lot these past few months.  I’ve experienced sadness, hope, loss, happiness and far more emotions than I could ever list.  I have met people who really tested my resolve and my confidence in myself.  I have met people who I believe have made me a better person and helped shape who I will be for the rest of my life.  One thing I am sure I have gained from this year is a new answer when someone asks me how I am. I will simply respond that I am blessed.

Cait Pugliese - Loaves and Fishes - Sacramento, CA